fear of losing you.
people know me as a fearless person, and I agree. until I know you. after you came into my life. I always worried. bunch of questions running in my mind every day.
“what if someday you leave me?“
nor, “what if I have no more chance to see your smile again?“
:)
I rather never know you and feel lonely all of my life than losing you. no one likes goodbye. and no one was prepared for it, including me.
I remember your words when we walked into the park. it was autumn and you said, “I love autumn.“
“everyone likes spring. why you choose autumn?” I asked.
“in autumn they fall, I mean the leaf. but it still looks beautiful. and I wanna be like that. even I fall, I lose, I failed, nor die. I still looked beautiful.“
you did that, Christopher. you look beautiful until your last breath.